Today I woke up feeling really sad. It felt like a dark cloud was literally hovering over my head. I went to bed that way. I tried on some clothes last night and couldn’t fit them. I felt fat. I felt disgusted with myself. I just felt defeated. Thank God my job is very casual because I felt like wearing sweatpants and a tee and that’s what I wore. As the day progressed, I did not. I just wanted to go home and sleep. I skipped lunch because who needs to eat when you’re fat right?

I decided to go outside and walk around the pond. While I listened to my music and basked in the sun rays, I got lost in my thoughts. I made it around the pond 5 minutes quicker than I normally do and I wasn’t short of breath. This made me smile.

Although I’m not better, I’m better than I was. I’m not at my lowest but I’m not at my highest.

I’m not sharing this for your compliments. I’m sharing this because I know I’m not alone and at one point I thought I was. I’m sharing because I want you to know it’s okay to have a day where you aren’t okay. I’m sharing because I want you to know you’re not alone in your struggle.

Today wasn’t a good day...and that’s okay. Tomorrow may be better.