I Am NOT Okay, Okay?!

I watch a lot of tv and read a lot of books and relate to certain characters in these stories. We all do. Insecure was the first time I related to multiple characters because each one represented a different time in my life. Whether it be my career, my attitude, my friend circle, my love life, my personality, my natural hair, my awkwardness…my mental health. I feel every aspect of me was present. So, to see literally a piece of me end, hurts. I felt the friend group were really my friends. I was proud of everyone’s “growth” *in my Kelli voice* and let’s be clear I was always Team Lawrence, but Daniel could’ve come back with his fine ass and swooped Issa off her feet, and I would’ve been okay with that ending too!

But ummm, Nathan. Let’s talk because I was rooting for you for a few episodes. Your mental health…hella relatable but how dare you want to move in one episode and then the next you been “feeling some way for a while”? Boy bye. You got me…I mean Issa effed up! Issa hasn’t been the most consistent but don’t try and backslide just because its convenient. But in the same breath, thanks for this easy out so Issa can be with her true soul mate! In the beginning, Issa drove you in and in the end, you drove her away. How fitting, Okay?!

Come to the front of the congregation Lawrence. I almost gave up on you when you had Confetti’s baby, I mean when she had yours. Just like a nigga to be raw dogging women that aren’t their rib and wondering why they can’t breathe. You been a nigga from jump but that really solidified the niggadom. Yet, I was still #TeamLawrence. Probably because I know all too well the niggatry that encapsulates women like me and Issa and Condolences. But then, when you showed to be a decent human being and daddy, you go and try and eff everything up with Issa. I mean, yay, but also, Nathan didn’t do anything to you so why were you going so hard on him? I get it. He has your woman, but he didn’t take her from you. He’s not Daniel. Was this pent-up anger from back then? Whatever it was, we all know that aint you bruh. You can’t fight. Nathan is bout that life. Nigga trying to die before he actually gets Issa back. Just dumb. You got a whole kid to think about now my guy but also #FuckDemKids especially Crayola’s. Do better, Okay?!

Tiffany, sis…can I call you sis? Because I know how in real life you like to tussle. I like you; I do. But you also get on my nerves. I have bougie friends and sometimes, I am the bougie friend, but you take “bougie” to whole nother’ level. It gives me “better than” and “beneath me” vibes and ion like that. However, I do appreciate your transparency especially with postpartum and marriage in general. Definitely the epitome of not looking like what you have been through because together is what you keep it. Don’t block me, Okay?!

Molly, girl. I’m going to be real with you. I didn’t like you. I actually loathed your character. You were my least favorite. I didn’t think you were a good friend. I didn’t think you were a good girlfriend. Hell, I didn’t think you were a good person period. You had dope fashion though!  But your character development was by far the best and you played the hell out of your role! You actually had me hating you in real life but now I love you. Award for most improved goes to you. And that’s on growth, Okay?!

My girl Issa. Issa Dee! You were a horrible friend chile. I mean bottom of the barrel, scum on the bottom of the shoe, sewer drain, toilet bowl, shitty boo boo head ass friend. You were trying though so D for done because that’s what everyone should have been with you. But you know what? I’m glad they weren’t because it helped you become a better friend and person. We all need second chances and although you had three, four, and five of them, you deserved a happy ending…even as a step momma! Happy looks good on you, Okay?!

I know the show was created by Issa and the true love story was that of Issa and Molly and teams were divided between #TeamLawrence and #TeamNathan but I saved the best for last. Kelli, if a character were me, it would be you! Thick, fine, funny, and smart! A dangerous combination to have in a world of people that don’t like women that look like us. But you made women like me feel comfortable. You brought so much dimension to the show, the friend group, and yourself. I wanted to see so much more of you, but I understood why we couldn’t get that. The show would literally become about you because you are everything. If it’s not obvious, you were my favorite! Hella bias, Okay?!

As the seasons progressed, each character evolved into a different version of someone I was or knew. The only thing that didn’t evolve were the length of the episodes *rolls eyes*. The show quickly turned from Insecure to Secure and I am here for it all! Full circle moment. The season finale wrapped things up in a way that made you reflect on the past 6 seasons of your own life. Like Issa said, I just want to skip to the part of my life where everything is okay and I’m okay with finding out where this journey will take me. Most importantly, it showed me black women deserve happiness too no matter the journey to get there. Do what's best for you!

Now we just need a movie, and all will be right in the world. Well kind of considering we are still in a whole panorama. We can call the movie “Done, Okay?!” I say we like I’m making it…or will I? I could act in it at the very least!  

Thank you @Issarae for creating such a masterful depiction of black culture and creating so many opportunities for actors, production, writers, drivers, people in the community, businesses, and viewers. Thank you @amandaseales, @yvonneorji, @natasharothwell, @jayellis, @kendrick38, all of the amazing cast past and present, and especially the writers, that made this series so relatable, enjoyable, and life changing. Okay I’m done because I’m about to cry again. I’m a punk but a G at heart. I’m going to miss y’all for real!