Woman...Evolve

Position: 

Noun 

a situation or set of circumstances, especially one that affects one's power to act. 

I had the opportunity to attend Sarah Jakes Roberts “Night in the Wild” event a couple of weeks ago. It’s a part of her Woman Evolve movement that’s “committed to erasing limits and challenging the norms of what it means to be a modern woman of faith.” It was pure divine that I was in the place for her word because it was meant for me. And catch this, I wasn’t even suppose to be there, well I guess I was since the word was for me, but I had procrastinated on getting a ticket. The day of I was gifted with a ticket, won a contest while there and was gifted some goodies, was able to speak on stage in front of a sold-out audience and manifest my dreams, and prophetically be told what to do and how to achieve my goals. It was such an amazing experience. From that night on I have been living accordingly to the word “position”.   

You see, while I am confident in most areas of my life, I am human and allow fear to dictate my movements in other areas. I have had a fear of truly stepping out and fully conquering my passion...writing. For some reason, I am afraid. I guess of what comes with it.  

People actually seeing me. 

I'm not one for attention. Believe it or not! I am a behind the scenes, behind the screen type of person. I make jokes and I'm funny but I still have my moments.  

Moments when I have an attitude.  

Moments when I don’t want to be bothered. 

Moments when my mouth is reckless. 

Moments when I just don’t give a fuck. 

And honestly, the world doesn’t like when you are human. You know, when you actually go through stuff.  

But I am human and I have moments and the more I am seen...the more people will actually see ME. 

Position. 

So, if you're in position and you’re following your path set forth for you, does it matter what people see?  

I wrote a piece about Atatiana Jefferson, the woman murdered by a police officer in her own home in Texas with her nephew only a few feet away. It enraged me. It disgusted me. It made me sad. So, I wrote. I normally do this when I am in my feelings. This time I actually posted what I felt. I posted as if I was her. I was Tay for a moment in time. It was the first time I posted something that I didn’t edit. Something I just wrote from my heart. I woke up the next morning and it had gone viral. It was crazy the amount of responses I was getting from it. I was overwhelmed. I was mixed with emotions. The situation I wrote about was extremely sad however, I was excited that people were hearing her. Hearing us. This was the push I needed to put myself in position to continue making a change through one of the things I love most...writing. To give a voice to the voiceless. To help the unheard be heard.  

Evolve

Verb

develop gradually, especially from a simple to a more complex form.

Since then God has been showing up and showing out all because I was obedient and put myself in position. And while I am still trying to remain obedient, I am feeling a push towards something I have never been comfortable doing and I am scared out of my wits. I know it's something I am suppose to do but man, I am shaking in my boots. I am not ready but God thinks I am. So it’s time for the next chapter.  Are you ready for the next chapter waiting for you? Are you walking in your purpose? Whats holding you back? Lets chat in the comments.

Woman...Evolve